I got a comment from Twitter from someone who read my last post, pointed out where I mentioned that I could get a job but don’t, and where I mentioned that I am sad about my level of privilege. She then responded with “Oh, you poor dear. #tinyviolin”. I didn’t respond as well as I should’ve, mostly because I felt like my actual issues - the fact that I still need to find ways to overcome my debt, and that I need love and affection just like anyone else - were being minimized.
After some conversation, I realized I was taking the whole thing too hard, and that her comment wasn’t constructive, or nice. And I don’t want to engage with comments that aren’t constructive or nice. So, enough with that.
I have some thoughts about why this is art, and how it could be misperceived. This entire project has some issues, and I am - I think - aware of them.
People may not see it as art. This is an exploration of whether or not it is possible to name an issue I have in my life (in this case, debt), and, by choosing a really small deadline in which to act, to overcome it. It is an exploration, a scientific study on setting intent and simulating scarcity. It is not my career model for my life, and it is not meant to replace my job.
People may see this blog as the means of making money. It isn’t. I shouldn’t be blogging at all. I am writing here because I want to share my experience. It is a monumental waste of effort that could be better spent actually making products and services for people.
People may presuppose that this is me asking for money about my debt. It isn’t. I am not a charity case. I have enough money, right now, to pay this small loan off. What I am interested in is whether or not I can turn a liability into an asset. I chose one of my loans as an arbitrary catalyst. I plan to provide services and value for the money I receive.
People may think that I should get a job, instead. I do not believe the myth that a 9-5, regular job is the only way to make capital. In my case, it is not what has proven in the past to make me happy, and I think that there are more creative ways I can make money. Modern capitalism doesn’t demand that you be a worker, it just demands that your provide perceived value and are fiscally remunerated for that perceived value.
People may think that pointing out my hardships (debt) is not wholesome, or manly, or polite. I don’t have an answer for this one. I wish we talked about our issues more openly, as a society, because it would encourage empathy.
My sense of privilege and network are necessary for this, and it is graceless to point that out. Yes, I have privilege and an extensive network. However, I also have a right to self expression, and I also have my own struggles. Comparison of hardships doesn’t remove hardships from the person who has less. Are my issues less? Yes. Are they real? Yes. Should I use my network and position to alleviate them? I don’t see a reason why I shouldn’t. Is it perhaps more morally virtuous to ignore them and help out the less privileged all of the time? Sure, but I don’t think that that is mandatory. I’m willing to read more on this.
I’m 100% hoping that someone responds to this and helps me grow. I want to further conversation on this topic, and on whether or not this was an interesting idea.